4 days has passed since i've started this job of mine at tuas. i should have wait till friday or over the weekend. but i realised my weekend is even more packed. haha. cause i can never pack it on weekdays having to travel around singapore. 4 days have passed. 4 different feelings. roller coaster ride, as they usually say.

1st day. my dad drove me there. it seems to be a family affair thingy. my brother was in the car too. cause after dropping me off, he's going to school. he left 1.5hours earlier just to see where i'm working. thanks bro and pa and lao ma who woke up early to see me make up for my first day and to make sure i look nice and not over dressed. ok. i was introduced to my closer collegues (whoever was there). they seem nice and i was told throughout by boss that we now have 4 HOs in the company outrunning the TANs le. now there are 4 HOs, 3 TANs. i was introduced to the lab which is to be my second office. not a pleasant sight since the previous person didn't really put in much effort in keeping it clean and tidy. at about 3pm, boss called me in to introduce me to the company products, along with LEE, the china's distributor. and guess what, as i was sitting opp boss across his big office table, i kept yawning till i knocked out, and jerked awake the next moment. he noticed but didn't say anything. knows i'm still not used to it ba. yup, thats the highlight. me dozing off infront of my boss during a meeting.

2nd day was about the same, more things learnt. this day my dad drove me to the train station early to ensure i won't have to wake up so early. thanks dad. i started playing around in the lab. joke is i don't know how to use their burette. i even took it up and turned it upside down attempting to do so.i had no choice but to turn to my "god father" to "how har?" "nor, press here" i just have to squeeze the bottle!!! why didn't i think of it? first impression isn't that good hor? but well they're nice pple. i was treated lunch by JUN china guy there. good start. what the hell is 1%pH? what is SG? what is this what is that? haha. am i the only certified chemist there? how come i don't know all this? argh!@!?!@#!$

3rd day was the suckiest so far. i've done so many many mistakes. so many that i feel they're better done without me. and i feel so miserable. why am i travelling all the way here just to do all these documentations? i think evelyn is fed up with me le. i just don't like not being able to answer to questions. all the way back home i've been thinking of many many ways and reasons to get out of this situation, this job to be in exact. my dad sensed sth, he singled me out while driving me to tuition after work. it really feels very nice. and even the tuition kid doesn't seem to bother me much too. i was having a good time teaching. and this starts off the full cycle. i need someone there for me to grumble. i know my dad is good. my mom is good even my bro is good. but there's still room and space out there to squeeze someone else in.

4th day, today. my whole trip to work was ok. just that i got to the allocated bus stop way early. and had to sit there wait rotting and prevent myself from sleeping and slipping off the bench. and still last night's thoughts lingered. it even intensified. cause the night before i dreamt that my boss told me to get lost (but he did it in a nice cool way la). i would rather sack my boss than my boss sack me. but well the day passed by. i corrected my mistakes, amended and followed up. things went not bad. highlight. i bought 10 huge curry puffs for godfather. (he asked for shi or si i not sure which). he was complaining. haha. shaking his head. i must be so so so so stupid and xiao hai zi. haha. think the curry puff giving today brought the group closer, at least they know that i noticed evelyn's liking for curry puffs. so heres to all who's entering a new job. it doesn't hurt to buy things for your seniors. you need to bootlick at times. can see the difference. really.

i'm so looking towards to tmr. ever since last week. but well hopefully this would stay. my urge for the day to end. another long waited gathering with our closest.